Dude, just found this comminity the other day. Being honest, I always suspected and actually acknowledged some of the traits i had and have as autistic-ish; hell, even when growing up my mom and I used to joke around about me being autistic. But time passed and learned how to “act in life” and things were left only as a joke.
Anyway, I saw here someone sharing a link to RAADS test. I said to myself, naaah this is just a bunch of people seeking for validation of the ideas they already have. Fast forward a couple days, that idea never left me and took the test (I know what you are thinking) .
I just don’t know what to do with the results, honestly, I was expecting the score to be something in the realm of 100. But it is a fucking 176.
I just don’t know, man…
I absolutely feel you. I’m doing really well in terms of what society would consider good, but it’s absolutely falling upwards. I’m really good at my job, but the setbacks are constant outside that world and I 100% relate to everything you said. Just feels like everything is always falling apart and my best efforts will never be enough.
I felt the same way when I was diagnosed with ADHD, and I still have no idea what to do with that info other than feel “not enough” for anybody.
I don’t have any answers, but what you’re feeling is the same as me, so don’t hesitate to DM me (if that’s a thing on here) and vent. I’m always in need of a good vent too.