Found myself in a pretty terrible place mental health wise for a few years. Every day after work was 20-60mg edibles, a bowl or three, and vaping. I did this with some incredibly toxic people.
I’m back on track with my life now and only smoke occasionally. But now when I get high I just fucking panic. I’m talking one single joint and I’m in full blown stoned panic. It’s not eating junk food and laughing at stupid movies any more. It’s being terrified that everyone hates me and that I’m wasting my life and stressing about climate change the increasingly fascist government. I literally cannot relax when I’m high any more.
Is this a thing that happens? How do I go back to a happy high?
It sounds like you’re possibly smoking high THC low/none CBD products. Probably at the doses you were used to smoking, but now you don’t have same tolerances.
The very simplest thing I think could solve that issue is CBD.
Idk if it really has really any effects on it’s own, but it definitely attenuates THC high. The high then feels more like a “classical” high, still effective, but dulls away those negative panicky feelings.
https://youtu.be/9MEGGV2WGYo
That’s a video from like 15-20 years ago, but perfectly demonstrates my point. It’s a BBC reporter doing a story on “Skunk”, which was used as the term for very strong cannabis. It was strengthening around that time to about 20% THC. Now best plants are going somewhere around 30%THC, some even claiming closer to 40% on some plants.
She gets intravenous cannabis, twice. On one day she gets THC. On the other, THC and CBD (“more like the ‘natural’ makeup of the cannabis plant”). I think you’ll see which is which.
And probably recognise some of the feelings on the only THC part.